We leave for Sudbury in 1 week. I want to count down the hours.
So much crap has happened in the last month!! The universe is really testing us that's for sure...from hospital visits to fuses blowing to things getting stolen to spiders to lack of sleep...it's been a pretty rough month.
I have learned from this experience though.
If we never buy a house. If we forever rent this exact same apartment. If we forever live just as we are.
As long as we're together, as a family, supporting each other? That is ALL that really matters. Money means nothing. Being together, enjoying each others company, supporting each other, loving each other and being affectionate...as a family. THAT is THE SINGLE MOST IMPORTANT THING IN LIFE.
Money is nice. Love is much, much nicer.
I'm counting down the days, hours and seconds until we're all together again. My true happiness lies with my husband and children and our loving and supportive family and friends.
I am so thankful for all we have, but I'm thankful for our love most of all.
Thursday, July 19, 2012
Wednesday, July 11, 2012
Movies, music and the food bank
I've been spending a lot of time with the music on and the television off. My kids have been watching way less as well. The boys are spending most of their time outside and Marryn, who has the biggest imagination of all three of my children, is spending time "Doctoring" her babies, looking at books, making me imaginary tea and cookies and talking to her imaginary friend "The Star Lady". The music soothes me whether I'm sad, happy or irritated by something. The television and it's virtually non-existent summer line up hasn't caught my attention but once since Jer's been gone.
Movies are a different story. I've watched more movies since he's been gone that's for sure! On Sunday night my BFF and I went to see Magic Mike at the Drive in. It was pretty good, cute plot line and lots of eye candy! I haven't taken the kids back to the drive in yet but that is planned for probably Friday of this week, Ice Age 3 is coming out. Then the rest of the time before we head to Sudbury is pretty full!
Saturday the 14th Jonah has a soccer tournament, James has a hockey game and I have a stag and doe, Sunday the 15th is Niko's 4th birthday party (he turns 4 on Friday already!), Monday the 16th and Tuesday the 17th will be spent at my BFF's helping her unpack in her new place, Wednesday the 18th there is nothing planned except Soccer practice in the evening, so probably cleaning and catching up on laundry, Thursday the 19th is also nothing during the day but a hockey game in the evening so probably a rest and do nothing kind of day. Friday the 20th I have massage therapy, Saturday the 21st is soccer again, Marryn has a birthday party, I have dinner and a beach bonfire and the two little ones are sleeping at my sister in law's house. Sunday the 22nd and Monday the 23rd will be cleaning and laundry and resting days again and then Tuesday the 24th I have to go Toronto to sign the papers for Cian's parents to officially be his parents and his only parents and my mom and I are taking the kids to Black Creek Pioneer Village for the rest of the day, Wednesday the 25th is my 6 week check up and then Thursday the 26th is not only Jonah's 8th birthday but we leave for Sudbury for at least a week, possibly up to 2.
I'm so excited for things to be going so quickly...I've been sad on and off and missing Jer every day. The faster the days go, the quicker we get there to see him!
Tomorrow the kids and I will be going to donate food to our local food bank. I read in the newspaper about one of our local food banks being really low on food so today when I was doing my groceries I picked up a bunch of extra stuff to bring there. Being someone who's had to use the food bank before, I want to teach my children that it's important to donate when you can because you never know when you might need to utilize it! I hope they're never in that position but it's still important to teach them. Here is our haul to bring over tomorrow:
Happy Wednesday!!!
Movies are a different story. I've watched more movies since he's been gone that's for sure! On Sunday night my BFF and I went to see Magic Mike at the Drive in. It was pretty good, cute plot line and lots of eye candy! I haven't taken the kids back to the drive in yet but that is planned for probably Friday of this week, Ice Age 3 is coming out. Then the rest of the time before we head to Sudbury is pretty full!
Saturday the 14th Jonah has a soccer tournament, James has a hockey game and I have a stag and doe, Sunday the 15th is Niko's 4th birthday party (he turns 4 on Friday already!), Monday the 16th and Tuesday the 17th will be spent at my BFF's helping her unpack in her new place, Wednesday the 18th there is nothing planned except Soccer practice in the evening, so probably cleaning and catching up on laundry, Thursday the 19th is also nothing during the day but a hockey game in the evening so probably a rest and do nothing kind of day. Friday the 20th I have massage therapy, Saturday the 21st is soccer again, Marryn has a birthday party, I have dinner and a beach bonfire and the two little ones are sleeping at my sister in law's house. Sunday the 22nd and Monday the 23rd will be cleaning and laundry and resting days again and then Tuesday the 24th I have to go Toronto to sign the papers for Cian's parents to officially be his parents and his only parents and my mom and I are taking the kids to Black Creek Pioneer Village for the rest of the day, Wednesday the 25th is my 6 week check up and then Thursday the 26th is not only Jonah's 8th birthday but we leave for Sudbury for at least a week, possibly up to 2.
I'm so excited for things to be going so quickly...I've been sad on and off and missing Jer every day. The faster the days go, the quicker we get there to see him!
Tomorrow the kids and I will be going to donate food to our local food bank. I read in the newspaper about one of our local food banks being really low on food so today when I was doing my groceries I picked up a bunch of extra stuff to bring there. Being someone who's had to use the food bank before, I want to teach my children that it's important to donate when you can because you never know when you might need to utilize it! I hope they're never in that position but it's still important to teach them. Here is our haul to bring over tomorrow:
Happy Wednesday!!!
Thursday, July 5, 2012
More space filling
Jer got off a couple of hours early on Monday since it was a holiday and we stay up until 3 am talking. I really needed that and so did he, it was nice to not have a time limit and just "be" with each other even though we're so far apart.
This time away from each other, while hard, has been good as well. Not that I didn't before, but I appreciate even more now, just how much he really does for our family. I miss him so so much when he's not here for the little things like singing at bedtime or just hanging out on the couch or going to get fresh vegetables from our road side stand that we always go to. I miss the hugs and kisses he liberally gives to me on a daily basis. I even miss his snoring. This time away has definitely helped me realize the things I do take advantage of when he's here (like yesterday when Jonah got bit by the dog down the street and I spent 3.5 hours in urgent care waiting for them to stitch him up....with Marryn. Who is three. And antsy....all. the time. It would have been much easier had one of us been here to take Jonah and one of us watch Marryn).
Speaking of Jonah being bit by a dog...ya that was fun...NOT. He only had small puncture wounds on his hand but they were pretty deep (the neighbours dog is a doberman) and he needed one stitch in the top and one in the bottom. Poor guy, he was so brave. He didn't even cry until they mentioned stitching him. They x-ray'd it to make sure nothing was broken as well and thankfully nothing was. He will be staying away from the neighbours house for a while I'm sure!! Normally the dog is fine but Jonah stuck his hand in the house from outside, while the dog had a bone and I guess the dog thought there was a threat of some kind. The neighbour came and apologized profusely and let us know the dog was all up to date on his shots thank goodness so we don't have to worry about rabies or anything. But he can't swim until he gets the stitches out in 10 days....and it's SO hot here right now :( He's in good spirits though...my little trooper.
As for me, I have good days and bad days. Yesterday? Bad day. It started with me going to the Dr's first thing in the morning, only to be met by the resident Dr. and told that my Dr. hadn't returned from his hospital rounds so "would it be ok if I talked to you instead?"...I was reluctant being that I was there to talk to him about some pretty personal stuff. But she talked me into it...little did I know that I wouldn't be seeing my Dr. at all...I thought he would come in after but that was not the case. Because I was there for anxiety related issues, I started to cry. I felt totally ridiculous. She gave me some medication for my anxiety and a prescription for massage therapy which I will start today. I've been waking up with headaches in the mornings and it is most certainly related to these horrible knots I have in my neck and shoulders!! With the flood gates (my tear ducts) open, I couldn't do much to stop them once it started :( I haven't cried since probably Sunday so I knew it was coming. Jer called me and comforted me (as he always is able to ♥) and then I just came home to chill out for the day....instead we went to the urgent care a few hours later lol....yeah, bad day yesterday!
Hopefully today will be better. I have massage therapy at 1 and then James has hockey tonight at 6:30. I was hoping to go to the Drive In again tonight but unfortunately there is nothing for the kids playing that we haven't seen already....the only thing for kids playing is Brave which we saw last week...I'm thinking maybe we'll hit the Cineplex in the falls and watch Madagascar 3 in 3D instead. Probably much cooler!
We're also all trying to beat the heat here. I haven't had the air conditioning on because I'm pretty sure the filter needs to be changed and was making me feel funny last week. I've kept it off and felt pretty good other than being sweaty so I'm trying to avoid putting it on. Tomorrow, however, may be a different story. It's supposed to be 35 here with a humidex making it feel like 43. :/ We may have to put it on for a bit tomorrow just so we don't all melt!!!
I hope it's cooler wherever you are!!
Happy Thursday!
This time away from each other, while hard, has been good as well. Not that I didn't before, but I appreciate even more now, just how much he really does for our family. I miss him so so much when he's not here for the little things like singing at bedtime or just hanging out on the couch or going to get fresh vegetables from our road side stand that we always go to. I miss the hugs and kisses he liberally gives to me on a daily basis. I even miss his snoring. This time away has definitely helped me realize the things I do take advantage of when he's here (like yesterday when Jonah got bit by the dog down the street and I spent 3.5 hours in urgent care waiting for them to stitch him up....with Marryn. Who is three. And antsy....all. the time. It would have been much easier had one of us been here to take Jonah and one of us watch Marryn).
Speaking of Jonah being bit by a dog...ya that was fun...NOT. He only had small puncture wounds on his hand but they were pretty deep (the neighbours dog is a doberman) and he needed one stitch in the top and one in the bottom. Poor guy, he was so brave. He didn't even cry until they mentioned stitching him. They x-ray'd it to make sure nothing was broken as well and thankfully nothing was. He will be staying away from the neighbours house for a while I'm sure!! Normally the dog is fine but Jonah stuck his hand in the house from outside, while the dog had a bone and I guess the dog thought there was a threat of some kind. The neighbour came and apologized profusely and let us know the dog was all up to date on his shots thank goodness so we don't have to worry about rabies or anything. But he can't swim until he gets the stitches out in 10 days....and it's SO hot here right now :( He's in good spirits though...my little trooper.
As for me, I have good days and bad days. Yesterday? Bad day. It started with me going to the Dr's first thing in the morning, only to be met by the resident Dr. and told that my Dr. hadn't returned from his hospital rounds so "would it be ok if I talked to you instead?"...I was reluctant being that I was there to talk to him about some pretty personal stuff. But she talked me into it...little did I know that I wouldn't be seeing my Dr. at all...I thought he would come in after but that was not the case. Because I was there for anxiety related issues, I started to cry. I felt totally ridiculous. She gave me some medication for my anxiety and a prescription for massage therapy which I will start today. I've been waking up with headaches in the mornings and it is most certainly related to these horrible knots I have in my neck and shoulders!! With the flood gates (my tear ducts) open, I couldn't do much to stop them once it started :( I haven't cried since probably Sunday so I knew it was coming. Jer called me and comforted me (as he always is able to ♥) and then I just came home to chill out for the day....instead we went to the urgent care a few hours later lol....yeah, bad day yesterday!
Hopefully today will be better. I have massage therapy at 1 and then James has hockey tonight at 6:30. I was hoping to go to the Drive In again tonight but unfortunately there is nothing for the kids playing that we haven't seen already....the only thing for kids playing is Brave which we saw last week...I'm thinking maybe we'll hit the Cineplex in the falls and watch Madagascar 3 in 3D instead. Probably much cooler!
We're also all trying to beat the heat here. I haven't had the air conditioning on because I'm pretty sure the filter needs to be changed and was making me feel funny last week. I've kept it off and felt pretty good other than being sweaty so I'm trying to avoid putting it on. Tomorrow, however, may be a different story. It's supposed to be 35 here with a humidex making it feel like 43. :/ We may have to put it on for a bit tomorrow just so we don't all melt!!!
I hope it's cooler wherever you are!!
Happy Thursday!
Sunday, July 1, 2012
Filling the spaces in between...
It's been one week since Jer left for Sudbury. Despite talking every single day, it's still hard to go to bed without him here. I'm finding it hard to get motivated to do anything at all though I'm sure the heat and the fact that my anxiety is through the roof right now doesn't really help that much. I made a Dr.'s appt for next week to talk to him about the anxiety. It hasn't been this bad in years and I know it's because of everything that has gone on in the last two weeks with having the baby and what not but I think I may need a little help balancing out my hormones and anxiety.
Aside from that I've just been trying to keep myself and the kids busy. I bought myself a couple of girly movies (The Help and Bridesmaids) to pass the time when I am alone (when the kids are sleeping or when they sleep at my in laws). We've filled the spaces with soccer and hockey. I took them to the Drive In on Friday night and we saw Brave (which is a great movie and I recommend anyone go see it!). Yesterday was a bonfire at Jer's dads and then the two youngers slept over while I came home and watched Bridesmaids with my best friend after she got off work. I've also filled the spaces by helping her look for apartments and will be filling some more spaces by helping her pack. She's moving out of her current place on July 15th so that will help pass some time as well.
Coming up to fill the spaces are 3 birthday parties (Jonah's friend, my first surroson is turning 4 and then Marryn's friend), an appt on Wednesday for me, soccer practice that evening, hockey the next night, the Drive In again to see Madagascar 3 this time, soccer game Saturday, more soccer and hockey the next week, possibly Marineland that week, then the 24th I have to meet with Cian's parents and a lawyer to finish up the final paperwork for his declaration of parentage, after that my mom and I are going to take the kids to Black Creek Pioneer Village. I have my 6 week check up the next day.
Then, on the 26th, Jonah's birthday, we will be heading up to Sudbury for a week for sure, possibly longer. We're staying for sure until the 2nd. If Jer's dad decides to go up for the civic holiday weekend, we'll stay for that weekend as well. Jer could possibly be finished on the 6th which means we'd all come home together (and this is what I'm ultimately hoping for!). If not, he'll be done somewhere around the 20th and we'll just come home and finish filling in more spaces until he gets home! Likely with more Drive In trips and what not.
This week has gone by faster than I expected it would (thankfully!) and I'm really hoping that with all the things we're planning to do, it will continue to go pretty quickly.
I'm very thankful for our iPhones, we're in contact every moment we can be. He says the work is relatively easy which I'm glad for him. He just moved into the Dorms at Cambrian College which is nicer than the Inn he was staying at and he has laundry facilities and his own bedroom here instead of sharing an open room with another guy. At least there is a wall separating their sleeping quarters now! They still share the kitchenette and bathroom but that's not so bad. We'll be staying there as well when we go up so we'll all be able to be in the same place!!
So, we're counting down the days!! 25 to go until we leave for Sudbury!!!
Aside from that I've just been trying to keep myself and the kids busy. I bought myself a couple of girly movies (The Help and Bridesmaids) to pass the time when I am alone (when the kids are sleeping or when they sleep at my in laws). We've filled the spaces with soccer and hockey. I took them to the Drive In on Friday night and we saw Brave (which is a great movie and I recommend anyone go see it!). Yesterday was a bonfire at Jer's dads and then the two youngers slept over while I came home and watched Bridesmaids with my best friend after she got off work. I've also filled the spaces by helping her look for apartments and will be filling some more spaces by helping her pack. She's moving out of her current place on July 15th so that will help pass some time as well.
Coming up to fill the spaces are 3 birthday parties (Jonah's friend, my first surroson is turning 4 and then Marryn's friend), an appt on Wednesday for me, soccer practice that evening, hockey the next night, the Drive In again to see Madagascar 3 this time, soccer game Saturday, more soccer and hockey the next week, possibly Marineland that week, then the 24th I have to meet with Cian's parents and a lawyer to finish up the final paperwork for his declaration of parentage, after that my mom and I are going to take the kids to Black Creek Pioneer Village. I have my 6 week check up the next day.
Then, on the 26th, Jonah's birthday, we will be heading up to Sudbury for a week for sure, possibly longer. We're staying for sure until the 2nd. If Jer's dad decides to go up for the civic holiday weekend, we'll stay for that weekend as well. Jer could possibly be finished on the 6th which means we'd all come home together (and this is what I'm ultimately hoping for!). If not, he'll be done somewhere around the 20th and we'll just come home and finish filling in more spaces until he gets home! Likely with more Drive In trips and what not.
This week has gone by faster than I expected it would (thankfully!) and I'm really hoping that with all the things we're planning to do, it will continue to go pretty quickly.
I'm very thankful for our iPhones, we're in contact every moment we can be. He says the work is relatively easy which I'm glad for him. He just moved into the Dorms at Cambrian College which is nicer than the Inn he was staying at and he has laundry facilities and his own bedroom here instead of sharing an open room with another guy. At least there is a wall separating their sleeping quarters now! They still share the kitchenette and bathroom but that's not so bad. We'll be staying there as well when we go up so we'll all be able to be in the same place!!
So, we're counting down the days!! 25 to go until we leave for Sudbury!!!
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